Praise in the Name of Frequent Flier

First full day in Fort Collins and all I want to do is hide in my blankets and read books. Outdoor exploration to follow- but not today. I am enjoying being in one place without an impending move looming in my conscious. Whew. 

I have already lost my cat. She does not share my sentiments, I guess. 

I know there is no use losing sleep over technology and the affect of its development on our society. I know. I know. But I cannot help but feel there is something wholly wrong with the possibility that "books" will be completely digital in the future. 

I don't want to carry a computer with me everywhere. Computers break. 

And the argument that digitizing books saves trees is legitimate- but what about the materials used to create computers? We're fighting wars over that shit. 

I love Caps

Well, I mean, yes. Pull my leg hairs.

The Ballad of Sexual Dependency

"In spite of it all, people have a need to couple. Even when they're being destroyed, they're still coupling. The Ballad of Sexual Dependency starts and ends with this premise, but in between there is the question as to why there is this need and why it is so difficult.

I think that men and women are irrevocably strangers to each other, irrevocably unsuited. It is almost as if men and women are from different planets, they have such difficulty understanding each other. I find men, or the male emotional system, very difficult to understand. Men seem to be afraid of women. Emotionally, I am much suited to be with a woman, but then there is this sexual desire for men. I realize my emotional and sexual need for the opposite sex. The slide show touches gay relationships too; I am dealing with the difficulty of coupling, and part of that is the difficulty in maintaining intimacy. "

- Nan Goldin, Interview, 1986

A mon a vie...

If I were to have the space, time, energy or Boss DJ to host a "Crunk n' Shake", I'd play these songs first...

1) "Who Dat?"- JT Money (from the album "Pimpin' on Wax)

2) "Ice Cream Paint Job"- Dorrough 

3) "Hood Figga"- Gorilla Zoe 

4) "Right Round"- Flo Rida

5) "Make Em Say 'Ugh!'" - Master P

6) "I Need A Dime"- Mike Jones f. Ying Yang Twins

7) "Lip Gloss"- Lil' Mama

8) "Tell Me When to Go"- E-40 

9) "You're a Jerk"- New Boyz

and just because I can..

10) "Bombastic"- Shaggy

People would be ghost riding their whips in no time. 

Double-Double, Toil and Trouble

Say ahhhhh.

As the semester comes to a close and Spring not-so-subtly becomes the dastardly summer, I am finding myself in a familiar situation with an unfamiliar frame of mind. 

In the last week, I have moved out of my house, shacked up in temporary residence, shelled a great deal of my belongings, finished the last of my Art History classes and finally come to terms with the fact that I like riding my bike more than almost anything else in this world. I am standing on the edge of another move Northward, yet this time it's to a place that I know I will enjoy both environmentally and socially. (Big ups to CO). 

There is a timeline- I will be back. I'm not running from what I perceive to be the shortcomings of my hometown. I am instead embracing how much I love Tucson, so much so that I need to leave for a few months to briefly "cut the cord". I am going to enjoy another place, a different atmosphere and a new living situation with full intentions of returning home. I don't expect to find something that's missing inside of me. And that is an awesome feeling. 

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This morning, Kate and I spun out to McCain Loop for an fairly easy 2hr ride. It never ceases to amaze me how beautiful the Tucson Mountains are. We are so blessed to be able to have these roads and hills for which to Play Bikes. Between the beautiful scenery and the comedic performance that is status-quo for rides with Kate, I was totally gellin' (like Magellan??). Not taking those Tequila shots last night was worth it.